Beginning Ground

I am reaching the end (or the beginning) of an energetic turn. I spent 3 months in a deep shavasana, Dec-Feb, a deep sensation of letting go completely. I found my body arriving this no moving, no agenda, no exercise, no nothing, not even ‘meditation’, or exercise, or anything, just stilling, stilling in my life. Like everything was flowing out of me. A limpid sac.

A turning now.

I find a ground, a letting go, a vulnerability forward. It flows head to foot, the felt sense to let it go, anytime anywhere. A me, deeper inside. Meeting from that place; while everything else rushes through. No agenda. No need at all. Just here, and clearing, letting go the whole time; its a distinct physical state. I can be with you/me. In flow, and firmly here.

Letting go and present at once.

Like my cells had to stop, even the slightest movement would have kept them in their way. Stopping, finally receiving the new encoding, to stop moving and running away. It feels post-body, in a newish way. Like I don’t ‘care’ about my body anymore. Like all exercise is about energy, ground, release, presence. Feels like getting older; the quality of knowing where I am, where my boundary is, starts and ends, is totally different. My skin is a lot less important.