The tightest spot in me

We’re in the old tight places but I’m noticing I’m doing it differently. I am noticing
– slowness ~ the need to go really slow
– self-care and beauty ~ the fuel, the nourishment,first and driving flow
– friendships ~ supportive, amazing, diverse, people who are present, reflecting, and love me, in it
– church ~ weekly breaking bread together, learning to see our life transitions together, family, community, vulnerable living
– yoga ~ on the mat, honesty, facing, healing, remembering
– meditation ~ asking, not running, listening, humbling, shaking, disarming, shuddering into what’s here
– new offerings ~ slowly offering a voice, with lots of support, small, gentle, little; safety among friends, and creativity
– spontaneity ~ staying with what’s here now, not planning, theorizing, or generalizing
– apology, forgiveness, and listening ~ being honest with those parts of me and others who travel with me
– making amends ~ cleaning up, and acknowledging my ways
– not efforting ~ seeing what comes, staying with my center
– surrender and trust ~ really doing family, unprotected
– setting a new architecture ~ taking the time to build the smallest parts and loving them