I have a new framework for guiding my weekly scheduling.<\/p>\n
**<\/p>\n
Here are the 6 things I check in on to make sure I know what am doing:<\/p>\n
1. Do my practice – I am my practice. \u00a0This is my day. \u00a0It is the foundation of what guides me. \u00a0It starts from here. \u00a0It requires no knowing or analysis.<\/p>\n
2. Step up into creating and making – How I know what I am doing and where I am going. \u00a0Creating using my ‘hands’, brings voice, intention, ideas into concrete beautiful things in the world<\/p>\n
3. Set up the boundaries of my work – Keep creating the structures and elements the hold my work. Then I can feel myself and feel where I am, it holds the practice.<\/p>\n
4. Add clients – Trust connection. \u00a0This is what all the foundation is for. \u00a0Co-shape. \u00a0Play, discover, discipline, dance.<\/p>\n
5. Manifest the family floor – \u00a0This is an essential part of my work, and how I shape. \u00a0I create a world around more than just me. \u00a0Back and forth back and forth. \u00a0It is a non-duality; me as woman; unity. \u00a0Rudder. \u00a0Radar. \u00a0Quarter Back. Making the individual and the whole at the same time. \u00a0Beauty in a crucial power.<\/p>\n
6. Devotion to feminine strength – I study with my teachers. I devote myself to self-care and contemplation. I embrace my role.<\/p>\n
**<\/p>\n
How I know what I am doing?<\/p>\n
I schedule my week:
\n– I check and make sure that I have specific activities to fall into each category in my week.
\n– I make sure I touch all of them, with at least 1-2 things in each each week.
\n– Then I add the other ‘must-do, regular stuff’ AFTER Otherwise these misc. things take over<\/p>\n
There’s lots of flexibility. When I see these 6 elements first on my calendar, I know I am on compass.<\/p>\n
**<\/p>\n
What about the demons? Well, that’s the underbelly…<\/p>\n
On a very deep level,\u00a0I have let scarcity drive my sense of purpose. \u00a0I have left approval rejection\/decide what is possible. I have left myself: either being competitive (getting out ahead, avoiding rejection) or in service (making you need me, being seen via your eyes). Exhausted, hidden, big-dissatisfied, small-needy, and confused about why I am always torn. And I haven’t even been aware of this most of my life. As I step away from insecurity, personality, externally defined priorities, and insecure possibilities, it leaves a big space!<\/p>\n
Here are my big (step-into, don’t know how to do them yet) questions:<\/p>\n
1. What is it I even do when I am not doing the approval \/ rejection thing? TRUTH: I have no idea!<\/p>\n
2. How do I organize my time when I don’t have a crisis driving my sense of purpose? TRUTH: I have no idea!<\/p>\n
3. How do I relate internally and to others when I am neither competitive (getting out ahead, in order to be bigger, cool) nor serving (making you need me, helping me be seen, via your eyes)? TRUTH: I’ve never really given myself the chance to explore!<\/p>\n
The answer: I don’t know!<\/p>\n
**
\nIt really takes a new spiritual floor, and a new sense of what I am up to (and soft body to go with it). None of these are kind or sweet. \u00a0None fit the way I’ve liked to think about myself, or the way I’ve worked (largely unconsciously) to make others see me as nice, kind, and beyond rejection. Its not pretty to discover these things about yourself. Its a big gap leaving behind facade. \u00a0Its a big trust seeing what my vulnerable competence is. \u00a0It takes a different sense of who you are and what you are up to that you don’t need to know this yet. This takes spiritual maturity.<\/p>\n
Being ‘lost’ is an accomplishment, a major one! Loving it without anxiety is a new stage.\u00a0Living your vulnerability and what you must do out loud, without knowing what it will be. That is living aloud.<\/p>\n
A poem:<\/p>\n
It takes…
\nVision and faith to be an artist.
\nYou return to yourself
\nTolerate yourself
\nDeeply
\nApproval\/rejection don’t tell you what is possible
\nThis separates you from most people.
\nYou’ve got another guide
\nugh!
\nHard earned
\nMake\u00a0friends with all that is liked and un-liked in you.
\nYour wellspring.
\nYour flow.
\nYour life force.
\nBe friend your rage, your self-hatred, your anguish
\nDon’t fix or change it
\nIt is a leap of faith
\nSo hard earned
\nSurrendering to be an artist<\/p>\n
**<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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