When I started making the website, I knew wanted a “Making the Studio Tab”, but who knew it would take 1.5 yr to get back to what inspired me: representing the joy of things that spark quiet beauty, a place for calm excitement. <\/p>\n
In the last year and a half, I budded off many categories I wanted: a place for funky photographs (today’s photo), a spot for deep learnings (thought and blog), a spot for rolling around in process (making of the studio and what goes on here). And all of that has been so satisfying.. Ahhhhhhhhhhh….<\/p>\n
The things I like to do in my body (my thinking and creating) are finally more visible. Its refreshing and relaxing. Like I’m more here. The categories of me, have a place. Now, 1.5 yrs later, I am ready to get back what inspired it in the first place. The front page is now elements of mundane beauty in my life. <\/p>\n
I couldn’t have done it any other way. For whatever reason, I needed all the other categories to be felt out first. Each one part of a deeply personal process, linking up to stuff in my life. Now I can feel my process and see more of who and how I “do”, and it lets me sit back, trust, more, and enjoy.<\/p>\n
I’m ready. For the foam on top. The abundant parts. The things that give my hands that itchy feeling inside. Its how I know I am in the right place. <\/p>\n
I had to do it slowly, painstaking… my way. Soon I will be putting more of myself on the outside. I am in this transition right now.<\/p>\n
But I find, this is what I need most, now. Arriving at a period of just allowing myself to enjoy. Finally, the time to finish, and not be pushed quickly into the next thing. Finally, the time to feel myself and know\/feel\/see my process, and know that my way IS the only way. Finally, the permission (inward) to sensorize, how I know if something is right or not. Finally, the wherewithal to demand that my life see beauty around me, because that is when I know I am being me. Finally, to arrive at trust, to allow and let the in-joy and beauty seep in. <\/p>\n
The shift mirrors other things in my life. I love these categories. But I love the category on the front the most. Arriving at the inner space to be here. I daresay, I deserve joy to be mine. I know it in my bones, now. I feel happy… and calmer. <\/p>\n
For whatever reason, I have never been able to take basic categories of my life for granted. I have always produced them, invented the ‘whole world’ around me, far from where I was. Part of me, I guess likes grappling, sculpting, working hard in empty space. I can feel myself more. There is something familiar, authentic in this. The joy and its shadow are mine, I guess. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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